A new beginning
As I reflect upon the transformative past year, it becomes clear that life, in all its unpredictability, has a way of reshaping us in profound and unexpected ways.
As many of you who follow me on social media know, this past year has been a year full of rather enormous changes for me. Last November (2022), I walked away from my home, my business, my friends and even my car to move to Texas in an effort to take care of my terminally ill mother. Regrettably, destiny unfolded with a certain cruel irony, as she passed away the day before I could get to her, on Thanksgiving. The loss of my mother marked a seismic shift in the fabric of my existence, a wake-up call that resonated with unparalleled magnitude. My mother was not merely family - or my greatest confidante; she was the last connection to my childhood, the anchor to a sense of familiarity that embraced me in the way only a parent can. The ensuing solitude introduced me to an emotional terrain I had not anticipated, leaving me to grapple with the unsettling realization that my last true "safety net" had been lost.
The path forward demanded a deliberate and measured approach. Rather than succumbing to the weight of grief and grappling for immediate answers, I focused on healing. My confidence and my nervous system, casualties of the tribulations I faced, needed restoration and regulating. In a decision that felt both intuitive and transformative, I chose to relocate to the Bay Area, where the support of my caring boyfriend awaited me. In the face of this profound loss, the urgency to “grow the heck up” swiftly took hold. My initial objective became clear—to confront the formidable challenges that life presented head-on. Tasks that I might have deferred in the past were now met with immediacy. Prioritizing the people I held dear, I recognized the importance of nurturing relationships that may have been neglected as I had been ensnared in the tumult of significant personal losses.
As I navigate the complexity of life's uncertainties, I find myself at a crossroads, still discerning the trajectory of my future. Yet, amidst the uncertainty, there is a longing—a yearning for the online presence that once showcased my photography, a craft that had become intertwined with my identity. The loss of my website, coinciding with the passing of my mother, only adds another layer to this narrative.
And so, here begins a fresh attempt at existing once again in the digital realm—a virtual space where I, for now, refrain from offering specific services. If, however, there is a project that resonates with both my skills and your needs, I invite you to reach out. For, in the ebb and flow of life, I remain open to the opportunities the Universe may unfold before me.
